i know i am different, but you should not care.
we know so much more, but sometimes, we are better off with less.
i shouldn't pretend that i don't feel a great sense of emptiness right now.
strange, it was not supposed to be this way.
i still believe that the best solution will be for me to run away, or hide in some shack somewhere while getting my memories altered by some quack of a doctor.
i rather be a Nazi in a war.
but, some things and people are worth a good fight.
because if i run now, i will regret it (or not regret it, but the latter seem so much more improbable).
because if i run now, i have this strange nagging feeling that i will keep on running from every goddamned thing.
and because, i like you (and it's mutual i guess).
and because, maybe, i am sick and tired of being crazy.
my biggest regret, however, is that i ran away 4 years ago.
for now,
i want to hold your hand and smile like we used to, but i am honestly still afraid.
i shouldn't pretend that i don't feel a great sense of emptiness right now.
strange, it was not supposed to be this way.
i still believe that the best solution will be for me to run away, or hide in some shack somewhere while getting my memories altered by some quack of a doctor.
i rather be a Nazi in a war.
but, some things and people are worth a good fight.
because if i run now, i will regret it (or not regret it, but the latter seem so much more improbable).
because if i run now, i have this strange nagging feeling that i will keep on running from every goddamned thing.
and because, i like you (and it's mutual i guess).
and because, maybe, i am sick and tired of being crazy.
my biggest regret, however, is that i ran away 4 years ago.
for now,
i want to hold your hand and smile like we used to, but i am honestly still afraid.
