i realised.
i realised that i am terribly immature, infantile, underexposed,
and that the world that i see is just a portion of my fears.
because you contained me - or rather, i am willingly contained-
within this grief and depression.
i expected you to understand - since, we are almost symmetrical in ways -
but then again, in life, there are miscalculations.
sometimes, i wished you did and that you were the one;
it would have saved time, needless effort and unnecessary feelings.
perhaps i would stop searching.
i should rest and redress.
and that the world that i see is just a portion of my fears.
because you contained me - or rather, i am willingly contained-
within this grief and depression.
i expected you to understand - since, we are almost symmetrical in ways -
but then again, in life, there are miscalculations.
sometimes, i wished you did and that you were the one;
it would have saved time, needless effort and unnecessary feelings.
perhaps i would stop searching.
i should rest and redress.
